Being abandoned by my loved ones is one of my insecurities, since childhood. I went through difficult times throughout my childhood, moving from one parent to another or on the streets alone. I never thought anyone would be interested in me or even if they were, they would use me and then walk out of my life. My whole perspective on relationships changed when my boyfriend came into my life. I thought he wouldn't last or that he would flirt with other girls and what not. But he proved me wrong. He always does. I honestly believe that no one will ever be able to understand me like he does or make every difficult problem easy for me. The only reason I went back to school was because it convinced my parents to let me continue my education and let me be who I want to be because it's my life to live and not theirs. I have tried to commit suicide due to situations caused by my family, many times, but my boyfriend has always given me reasons and potential to live through everything that chooses to destroy me. It is always there for me, no matter where in the world I am. And I admit that I'm afraid of losing him or seeing another girl in his arms. I feel like one day my insecurity and jealousy would ruin my entire relationship with him. I've spent two years with him now and I want it to last forever, but it feels so good to be true. I'm still trying not to let the little things get to me